Writing from joy.

Today I am challenging myself and I decide to write from joy. It is probably a weird thing to say but I have always found that my inspiration would mostly hit after a "down", or "low" period of my life. Today I decide to write without waiting for this down or low time. I don't really know what to write about as my life is evolving around my baby and I am very happy about it, I just can't think much about anything else for the moment. Maybe that is a good topic to write about?

Sometimes I am mad that I don't seem to have the mental capacity, the mental energy to think like I used to, to think about a lot of things, to philosophise, to develop ideas etc. But today I am so happy and grateful that becoming a mum put the focus on the present moment and on very tangible things.

I am for the majority of my time caring about feeding, changing, cuddling, entertaining my baby, making sure he is the happiest little boy on the planet.

I have moments where I am annoyed that I can't think and organise my "proper" come back to my career (if that is really a thing), but at the same time I want to lean in completely into motherhood. That very first year is so precious, we will never get it back the same. So I am leaning into my role fully, and that is how I will be able to completely enjoy it. I realised that when we spread ourselves to thin between a thousand things that is when we are unfulfilled... but when we are completely in something, we found ourselves in flow. (there need to be rest of course, but I mean not juggling a thousand things and trying to do everything at the same time).

Even this blog post has no structure and I don't know what I have been trying to say, but here it is, I felt like it needed to come out. I might come back to it and write some more but that is it for today.

Thank you for reading to the end haha :).